Jake, 27, from Croxteth Park and now living in Crosby, thought three years ago he had nothing to live for and tried to take his own life.
Proud daddy Jake Mills is proof that you can get through even the darkest and deepest of depressions and step back from the brink of suicide.
Jake Mills wants others to know that their lives can always change for the better.
And now he is looking forward to his first “real” Christmas together with his son – Teddy, who was born just a week before last Christmas – and his girlfriend Rachael Givens.
The stand-up comedian and writer was in complete despair, but today his life has changed. In June, he and his now nine-month-old son Teddy enjoyed a day he thought he would never experience – his first Father’s Day.
Jake, who runs his own mental health charity, Chasing The Stigma (chasingthestigma.co.uk), says: “It has always been my ambition to become a father. When I wrote English literature in high school, we had to write about what we wanted when we were older. While others in the class said they wanted to be an architect or rich and famous, I sincerely submitted an essay about my hopes of becoming a father.
“I always wanted to have a little boy or girl who would look up to me and whom I could look after, protect, teach and help grow and develop. I think it was because I come from a very strong and loving family.
“But I almost missed realizing my dream when I was at my lowest point. There was a time when I never felt that I was capable of being a father. As I sat in my car preparing to take my own life, the thought of a baby was the last thing on my mind. It’s hard to describe where I came from, but as I tried to end it all, I remember thinking, “I’m never going to achieve that.
“Father’s Day was pretty emotional – a dream came true. It shows that there is always something to look forward to.
Jake had gone to a favorite place and tried to slit his wrists. Later he told the story of his darkest hour for the charity CALM (Campaign Against Misery in Life – www.thecalmzone.net) and it was printed in the Echo.
“But here he is – my son. And here I am. When I sat in this car, it felt like the loneliest place in the world and that it would be like this forever. But I’m proof that it won’t be forever – Teddy is that proof.”
In it he remembered the moment when he came back from the abyss: “A child, not older than five years, ran past my car. I stopped what I was doing. I saw him run to his father and brother, saw them laughing and playing as they passed by. Suddenly the realization of what I was doing hit me like a ton of bricks. At the same moment I was found and brought home.
Today he says: “I have the feeling that I am now back in the real world. And I want other people who are going through problems to know that their lives can change at any time. I never thought I would be sitting here with my son and my girlfriend in a house that belongs to us – and looking forward to moving to another house.
“I want people to know that they are not alone and never will be. Whatever you thought or felt, someone else has had it before you. Millions of people around the world will go through the same thing at the same time – but everyone will think they are the only person who is experiencing it.
“Every single person in the world is mentally healthy, just as they are physically healthy. Sometimes, as with physical health, it will be good, and sometimes it will be bad. No one is to blame, that’s just the way life is….